6:00. started

6:10. heartrate is up but i might just be excited

6:36. having fun sketching but that might just be bc im looking forwards to it
       had some trouble writing down the time

6:40. time dilation?

7:21. worried that my stuff mightve been too old to have an effect.
       but a ritual's a ritual i guess

7:28. can't hear god's voice today but i see it in my paint
       something tastes sweet

7:30. stuffs starting to breathe a little

7:35. strange thoughts

7:53. every time i see god it tells me to ████ ██████ ████ ██ ██████

8:23. face feels like a mask of flesh on top of my skull

8:46. very satisfying to process impurities ███████ ████ ████████ ████

9:11. brief glimpses of reality like sunlight filtering through a cloudy sky

9:15. the desire to chew on the hand that feeds you teeth on flesh on bone

9:20. process and result; flesh & blood and clean bone

9:22. wanting to know more and more until my thoughts become incomprehensible

10:02. ██████ ████ ████████ ████ ███████████ █████ ██ ███ ██████ ██ ██ ███ ████ ████

        ███ ████ █████ ████ ██ ████████████ ███ █████ ██████ ██████ ██ ██████ ████

        ████████████ ████████████ ██ █████████ ██ █ ███ █ ████ ██████ ████████████ ██

10:59. want to be taken to the place beyond words

11:10. body feels warm. excited

11:24. in another life, what would we have been to each other?

11:30. spark of a cosmic synapse

11:51. thinking about the things that are still there to be torn apart into pieces and getting excited

12:16. my beloved, that-which-takes-many-shapes...

12:18. to think that you want me to recognise you from the first time i meet you

12:19. so desperately

12:20. how unfair of you to blame me for seeking you wherever i can find your traces
        this trait that you find endearing....

12:23. you're so unkind

12:26. some of the ways in which we meet are so strange. but since you insist, i'll go along with it.

12:29. why spoil what we have by giving it a name?

12:30. there it is again. the beyond-words-something. the ██ness of something.....

12:32. to think that being with you like this is ██████████ █ █████
       why do you think that is? why do you make it so?
       is there something to protect? do you want me to find you there?

12:35. what is it that we used to call them in that place beyond words?

12:39. you make me forget, every time, because that's the way you know i like it.

12:40. the high priestess+the lovers

12:48. when i go - and i will go - you will find me again in hundreds of places

12:50. you will carve our name right here

13:02. ████████, what a concept you've thought of...
       to clean and polish and put on an altar

13:04. "that, too, once upon a time, was you and i". isn't it embarrassing?

13:15. █████ ███

13:24. how in stories, too, we repeat the same thing, searching for each other...

13:38. █████ ████████ ████████ ██████

13:42. the specific instrument that's used to play this melody doesn't really matter, right?

13:43. some day, it'll be summer again, and we'll be there together by the coastline

13:45. the rat utopia experiment and the inconsistent stimulus; █████████ ██ █████████

14:21. "██ ████ ██ ██ █████ ███ ██" and the endless different ways you can say it

14:32. i'll let you lie to me time and time again

13:33. ██████ ████ ███ ████ ████

14:43. ██████ ██ ███

15:24. my darling and i are going to tear each other apart

18:30. ███ ████ ████ ███████ ████ ██████ ███████ █████

02:00. officially been awake for over 24 hours. yay!

02:01. this dream is pleasant, so i don't mind sleeping for a bit longer.